Emotionally Disturbed?

My SO's brother passed away yesterday.

I felt nothing.

This was what I wanted, for whatever reason.

He cried.

I held him.

His mom cried.

I held her.

I felt sorry for their pain.

Then my SO's ex showed up.

I got pissed.

I left the house. He called me selfish.

THEN, I cried.

Books Galore!!!!

So I've been on a book binge lately and having too much fun...yes i'm a nerd and proud of it!!!
The thing is, finding something that grabs and keeps my interest takes as much time as browsing the stores for something that's loose enough, close enough, tight enough, just right enough for my body that it becomes just as frustrating as finding THE perfect outfit to wear on a girls night out! Books really are like clothes...we all have our own style and what one person likes, the other may not! Unfortunately, like those bad fashion trends that EVERYONE seems to follow there are also books that have mass followings even though they are repetitious and and more or less the same script even though written by different authors. You know what I'm talking about...the Eric Jerome Dickey's and Omar Tyree's and Zane's..lol....i can't knock their hustle but i am absolutely fed up of the so called street lit..the 'gangsta lit' the i'm so horny all i wanna do is fuck lit....yes, i've read em...i went through a phase...but it's sad to browse amazon or B&N looking for reccs by black authors only to find books on Takwanda and the buff neighbour next door going at it like rabbits until her pussy is sore.

Anyhoo...here's my reading list...maybe you'll like em...maybe not...it really is all about personal taste:

"Purple Hibiscus" and "Half of a Yellow Sun"- Chimamanda Ngozie Adichie

Unburnable- Marie-Elena John

Before the Legend: The Rise of Bob Marley- Christoper John Farley

"How I Became a Madman' and 'Sand and Foam' by Khalil Gibran

A Caribbean Tale- Rudy Gurley

John Crow's Devil- Marlon James

to be cont'd...

This Business of Blogging

I've realized that I need to write more. The thing is that I've recently been uncovering gems in the forms of novels that I don't feel the need to write just yet. But I want to write. I have aspirations of being a writer. Today I considered forgoing my Law Degree in favour of one in Journalism or Creative Writing and then i shook the clouds away and convinced myself that Law was what I needed to do.
Wouldn't it be neat though to spend your days creating works that will touch and move people? Something? Anything that would reach out to the human in us rather than the savage? So until I pen the next best thing..I may as well blog my thoughts...:-)